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don't look down

by phoenix ↓

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1.
beautiful 04:06
come what may 'cause they are everywhere inside please don't you stay 'cause i'll remember you and you'll remember me... with beautiful lips and beautiful eyes there's beautiful colour in the beautiful sky there's beautiful meaning in beautiful lies why won't you listen to me? come what may 'cause they are everywhere inside of me... and please don't you stay 'cause i'll remember you --and you'll dismember me with beautiful lips and beautiful eyes there's beautiful colour in the beautiful sky there's beautiful meaning in beautiful lines... why won't you listen to me? 'cause it's the damn cold night on the winter's edge and i know i've been here twice and i've never felt so alone your vacant stare in the night the broken glass you hold so tight your eyes are wide and reality is sinking in... with your beautiful lips and your beautiful eyes there's beautiful colour in the beautiful sky there's beautiful meaning in beautiful lies why won't you listen to me?
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burn 03:46
hello there at least you're sober this time hand over the keys like this you can't drive oh well it's awesome how you twirl me around oh well it's awesome how you burn me down oh well it's awesome how you will turn this around oh well it's awesome how you burn me you burn me down no hello there at least it's over this time pull over like this i said you can't you can't drive oh well it's awesome how you twirl me around oh well it's awesome how you burn me down oh well it's awesome how you turn this around oh well it's awesome how you burn me down and it's burning and again and again you are turning all alone in your head it's concerning this time that we spend to taste it and waste it and start over again you can burn me all you like i won't fall i won't break it off hello there at least it's over this time
3.
it's not how you bleed that gets to me 'cause we all leak sometimes it's what we need but like before is your head still sore? by the engine's roar you told me that i'm not leaking anymore
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come around slow down your heart is in motion making no sound are you immune? to better days the kind that keep your mind at bay slow down do you believe? in me and my passions you make make-believe well maybe someday angel you'll believe in me one day one day just don't look down from these heights with angel highs and lows with angel heights and notes 'cause even heroes come close and even angels feel both taking us in brought in and out i am with poison and you are without you steal and take it push it and fake it break me--i'll stake it (stay kid) if you die i'll make it quit me with angel highs and lows with angel cries and notes 'cause even heroes come close and even angels feel both a scribble in your heartbook and write the fighting song you are filled with oxygen so please just sing along can you believe the years let go? the start to end it all you've past the sick and healing now the way too tall to fall the feeling tides are coming so please keep me in your thread how can you steal my oxygen and still get to my head? emotions aren't so high if you've learned to stay below i know what you think you're feeling now but it comes and it will go and it will go
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ghost 07:06
i feel like a ghost faker than most i hope that you know it comes and it goes i miss you so... do you remember who i am? the world was much smaller back then stars are my home i'll pretend nighttime's a fair-weather friend well i feel like a ghost faker than most i'll hope that you'll know it comes and it'll go i miss you so... but you don't remember who i am oh you felt much stronger back then stars are my home i'll pretend oh but nighttime's my fair-weather friend now i don't remember who i am oh but i know i was happier then holes in your soul don't quite mend but the truth in your heart you can bend i feel like a ghost faker than most and i hope that you know it'll come and it'll go i need you so... the ghosts up above they can howl all they want 'cause the heart that they lack is the heart that you've got they've been screeching for years just to make you believe but believing in fear is not believing in me oh the gods up above they can bitch all they want 'cause the love that they lack is the love that we've got oh they've been preaching for years just to make you believe but believing in ghosts it won't save you from me we're realer than those love terrifies both i hope that you know i'm no fucking ghost i love you so... much
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well i know it's hard to fall back on the starting line but hey it's what you are a loser then and a loser now well maybe you should try a little harder despite getting my back up against the wall i never felt so small hey let's decide to reward my conscience with the lie and maybe this time die a little every night 'cause we give away our prize to whoever fucks the loudest in our star jaded eyes that you will never see again and why don't we just celebrate the mediocracy with our hands in each other's cake 'cause we don't have our own and hey you get a trophy for coming dead fucking last 'cause we don't want you to feel bad well maybe i should find a reason to give a damn 'cause i've felt hard-pressed i could if i even started again 'cause i'm so far down the line i don't remember how to give the college try 'cause i dropped out to soothe my wounds and 'cause i couldn't afford it well i know it's hard to come back to the starting line but hey it's what you are a survivor then and a fighter now
8.
the cold morning start am i still breaking a heart i'll never win? 'cause i've been outside for my whole fucking life where have you been? well maybe next time if you could open your eyes and let me in? but i won't stay long because there's shit in my song that would make your pretty head spin and i can't be blamed for the reasons you shake and i can't be here when you break and i can't repair all the mistakes that we've made but i can be there when you wake well i don't know why we spend our whole goddamn life to get an in with some old man in the sky who couldn't care if you die but don't fucking sin oh it kinda reminds me of the time that i tried to break my skin and poured the angels inside i never felt more alive or close to him and i know you don't want to let in the light but the vampire police need your eyes tonight and i'm so goddamn afraid that you're not afraid to die 'cause i need your life in mine and i'm so goddamn afraid that you're not afraid to die 'cause i need your life in mine and i'm so goddamn afraid that you're not afraid to die 'cause i need your life in mine 'cause i need your life in mine
9.
those nights 04:55
i know you don't want to die tonight and i know just what you feel inside i know when you are trying to hide in my arms in my heart tonight and i know you only come alive when you're dancing on the edge of knives i know what you are trying to find in my arms in my heart tonight and it's a long way down i thought you'd learn by now but if you sound it out you'll find me spinning 'round and hey kid don't waste it i hope you finally make it i know your heart's on fire but it burns inside for all of us please stay kid don't break yet i know your heart can take it i know the look so i'll be breaking down your door because i know you don't want to die tonight i know the feeling's deep inside i know when you are trying to hide in my arms in my heart tonight and i know you only come alive when you're dancing on the edge of knives well i know what you are trying to fight in my heart it might hurt tonight truth tried speaking through the holes in her neck truth tried dreaming through the tubes in her head truth never made it from her heart to her tongue no one heard truth 'cause truth never won truth tried speaking through the holes in her neck truth tried dreaming through the tubes in her head truth never made it from her heart to her tongue no one heard truth 'cause truth never won with strength to borrow love fear and sorrow will you still be there? today tomorrow the straight and narrow blood steel and marrow will you still be there? my hope and arrow i know you don't want to die tonight and i know just what you feel inside i know when you are trying to hide in my arms in my heart tonight and i know you only come alive when you're dancing on the edge of knives well i know what you are trying to fight in my heart it might hurt tonight
10.
route 17 03:52
i lied about 17 times when i broke the bones inside my fist against your wall still so fucking tall that i couldn't believe it when i missed make-believe when you're 17 isn't as easy as it used to be i don't mind dying a little inside so long as you don't hate me for this because i already hate me for this i cried about 17 times when i read the bracelet 'round your wrist against it all with odds so fucking small that it didn't hit me 'til it did make-believe when you're 17 isn't as dangerous as it used to be i don't mind dying a little inside so long as you don't hate me for this because i already hate me for this but i could never hate you for this i died about 17 times until they broke the bones inside your chest and reached inside to save another life just like one final goodbye before you left i don't mind dying a little inside because your heart still beats but in another life the rhythm it keeps no longer remembers me but baby rhythm that i won't forget because it constantly plays through my head sometimes it's like you had never left this great big old hole inside my chest
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mom 04:20
she asked if i'd abide to die or get back my time between 9 and 5 so defy the high and my my you'll find a lie designed to confine the life that you wish so bad you weren't a part of wish so bad you never heard of wish these lines meant more than rhymes by tv people with their shirt off cut the fat and crack heart attack he broke your bones she broke your back why baby you're not keeping track and maybe you shouldn't love like that now i've been crying all these years so you could find me in your tears but like words need mouths and hands that feed you're listening without ears ...sometimes a line is just a line she asked if i'd ever seen inside these eyes so fucking terrified so pass it on to the passerby 'cause it's not right to live the lie that you wish so bad you weren't a part of wish so bad you never heard of wish this life meant more than i self-medicate to shake the worst off popping snaps for panic attacks this won't stay down this won't come back why baby still not keeping track well maybe you shouldn't think like that now i've been lying all these years so you won't find me in your fears but like kids need mom for knees that bleed you're crying without tears ...and sometimes alright is just alive so i asked if she'd ever wondered why pills flirt with girls and suicide decide to try and my my you'll find that i'm designed to keep you alive you don't have to wish you are a part of you don't have to wish you always were loved you are nothing less than whole to me you are what your child thinks the world of the less you know far less you'll ask when less is more it's what the lesson lacks but the less you think is the more you'll act 'cause it was you who learned to fight like that now i've been trying all these years to stop your crying and block your fears but you don't need these like i need you so i promise I'll be here ...but sometimes the fight comes just in time

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released December 21, 2022

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